Saturday 16 September 2017

F21





i turn 21 today. when i look back to a year ago, i realised that i hadn’t done any justice when i give my thankfulness. the life i was at, it was amazing. and as i reflect to the happy smiles of me turning 20; i would never thought that things are about to go crazy. there were no hint. 

so here i am, 21. carefully counting, even when i still pretty much can’t on what i gain and lose. and be grateful for every. single. thing; this is not something i can write one year ago. but i have seen and personally felt so many kindness, probably more than i ever witness in my entire 20 years of living combined. And for that, I thank every one. this life will never be about me. it can’t be. if it ever go towards that path, let this writing be a stab in the heart and remind me.

i love you and miss you, bapak.
didn't think that it is possible for you not to wish me a happy birthday.
wishing for your recovery.

16.09.17

Sunday 14 May 2017

ANNOUNCEMENT

will be posting my architecture not so good work in order to spread some wings on the designing business thingy.

S.D.G

Sunday 8 January 2017

supporting system

I am not in the mood of writing at all, but something just happened earlier this evening and it deserves a mark on my online journal since I wanted to remember this forever as long as I live.

During my early adulthood, I sometime wonder have I made friends with the right people? Are they really my friends or did we just stuck together and forced to be friends? Well as I examine them I assume that nature has its own way on answering one's question. several weeks after the question is up in the air, someone just broke my phone's screen for he gave an undoubtedly exciting news that tears me up, in a very good way.

And i am not going to talk about his achievements because he deserves better than an untrusted personal blog.

This is one of those friends that has always been my supporting system since ever. And no, we don't even stuck together. Meeting with the strangest condition ever, I acknowledge him since he was so famous back then when he got possessed (am I allowed to talk about this?) and long story short we finally introduce ourselves on our way back from school in an angkot and found out that we were born in the same uncommon city here in our area, Palembang. The odd does not stop there, it continues through the school council, even later become enemies on some competition but honestly i don't even know how we are friends and at this point... I do not even care.

There are just so many moments shared, especially the important ones. Of all, I remember you picked me up and then give me a 1000 rupiah originally told to pay for the parking ticket but it was actually a notes for me before I left for Gita Bahana Nusantara 2013, chat me during all the quarantine especially when I fail the audition for MPR even after I went back we used to sing sundanese song, sabilulungan together.. sometimes only via bbm :( good old days.


I even browse twitter to re-read so many funny chats and found that you actually sit and try to find my face even only for split of seconds H3H3H3H3


It is funny to realise, after more than 8 years of friendship,  we have only been a classmate for one year, and we don't even go to the same high school. But never once I doubt wether I am your friend  or not. And today I assure than I can even say I am a proud friend of yours & thank you for reminding me that i used to have big dreams and to hold on to it, still.

Lastly,

To one of the most funniest, smart, compelling yet thoughtful person I know:
Good luck with life ahead, so many great things are waiting to be done. May you find the true meaning of life & the purpose of it. I am honoured to see how much you grow and looking forward to see what the future holds. You are in my prayer :) 
See you soon!




here is to cherish those moment when you guys roll me inside my blanket like a sushi on my 17th birthday.



ps: no he is not my lover; he is way to cool for me. 

Thursday 22 December 2016

On deadlines

usually, near deadlines... my brain has the urge to think about the most strange thing. when it is supposed to focus on my project.

today I found that,

After 20 years of living, I found out that one of the purposes of life is to find something worth dying for.

Have you find yours?

Thank God I think I have...studio deadlines.
bye.